Amber Portwood Opens Up on Her Suicidal Thoughts in 'Teen Mom OG' Finale
By Natalie Zamora
Last night's episode of Teen Mom OG was surely as dramatic as ever, as we saw Amber Portwood in dire need. Unfortunately, the reality star revealed she was having suicidal thoughts, after social media bullying got out of hand, and due to her postpartum depression.
"There was a night that I was waiting for [Andrew] and James to go to bed so I could kill myself,” Amber tragically shared. "And for some odd reason, he could feel it and he was like, ‘I’m not going to bed.'"
Thankfully, Amber reached out to Catelynn Baltierra, her co-star who also has dealt with depression and anxiety. She and daughter Nova immediately flew out to Indiana to comfort Amber and help her during her tough time.
"I feel like I’m at my lowest right now. I have no will," Amber heartbreakingly told Catelynn.
Amber then realized what she had to do. Later on in the episode, she told the MTV camera crews that she just couldn't bear to be filmed any longer. As she's been very vocal about this season, Amber believes she has been portrayed in a negative light by the network.
"I think I should separate myself from the show," Amber told Executive Producer Larry Musnik. "I just don’t feel like this is right for my life anymore, seeing that you guys want a certain kind of story that I just don’t want to give you anymore. I just feel like it’s very different from a reality show anymore."
"If you guys need to do what you need to do on your end, then f**king do it. I’m done," Amber concluded.
Amber is hardly the only Teen Mom star who feels MTV is doing them wrong. Her co-star Bristol Palin took to Instagram recently to share how unfair it is that the show is trying to make her life more dramatic than it actually is.
@AmberLPortwood I'm watching last nights show & my ? is breaking for you. Stay strong & don't let stupid people who have nothing better to do than be vile & nasty bother you. You are strong & beautiful sweetie Sending prayers and big hugs ur way. #TeenMomOG
— Mrs. Bentley (@CmdbentleyMiche) December 18, 2018
It's clear the show tries to make things more dramatic for ratings, but these girls are not here for it. And for Amber, it's taking a serious toll. We hope she can get the help she needs in this truly terrible time. No one should feel the way she did in this episode.
If you or someone you know is feeling depressed and needs help, don't hesitate to call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255.