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'The Bachelorette's Hannah Brown Reflects on N-Word Controversy in Lengthy Instagram Caption

By Mae Harrington O'Neill

Hannah Brown reflects on her use of the N-word on Instagram Live.
Hannah Brown reflects on her use of the N-word on Instagram Live. / Jon Kopaloff/Getty Images

Back in May, former star of The Bachelorette Hannah Brown used the N-word during an Instagram Live video. The moment issued responses from various members of Bachelor Nation, including Rachel Lindsay, the first and only black woman ever to be cast as the Bachelorette. Brown issued an apology after the fact, and it seems she has been taking time to reflect on the controversy after she penned a lengthy post on Instagram.

"A picture can’t really capture how much I love my people and my home... but this is pretty close. I’m thankful for home. More so, I’m thankful for what I’m realizing home truly is. Home is not the town. It’s not the four walls. Those physical things aren’t the reason we take a deep breath and feel settled and safe again," she wrote. "What makes something feel like home... is the people that make you feel settled and safe. The people that hear that deep breath and know they need to run to you with a big hug, or take a minute to help you process while you ramble off thoughts. And they can be anywhere." You can check out the full post below.

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A picture can’t really capture how much I love my people and my home... but this is pretty close. I’m thankful for home. More so, I’m thankful for what I’m realizing home truly is. Home is not the town. It’s not the four walls. Those physical things aren’t the reason we take a deep breath and feel settled and safe again. What makes something feel like home... is the people that make you feel settled and safe. The people that hear that deep breath and know they need to run to you with a big hug, or take a minute to help you process while you ramble off thoughts. And they can be anywhere. ⁣ ⁣ How do you find those people? Great question. Look for the ones that can sit with you in the middle of your messy life. The ones that don’t point out the dirty dishes or the piles of unfolded laundry. Instead they just plop down next to you and say, “my life is pretty messy too... but while I’m here, wanna clean up together?”⁣ ⁣ The past few months at home have brought me to my knees (ok, lets be real, a full frontal face plant). This season has led me to the humbling position to receive the grace, feel the love... and save some room for a big slice of humble pie to take with me on the way back to the next season starting anew. I’m more than where I’ve been... and I can be more than where I’ve come from. I’m thankful for my people who love me just where I’m at, that’s home to me.

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Brown admitted to struggling recently. She continued:

"The past few months at home have brought me to my knees (ok, let's be real, a full frontal face plant). This season has led me to the humbling position to receive the grace, feel the love... and save some room for a big slice of humble pie to take with me on the way back to the next season starting anew. I’m more than where I’ve been... and I can be more than where I’ve come from. I’m thankful for my people who love me just where I’m at, that’s home to me."

Hopefully Brown has truly come to grips with how powerful her words and actions can be considering her impactful platform.