'Teen Mom's Mackenzie McKee Reflects on Year That 'Wounded' Her After Her Mom's Passing in Touching Post

'Teen Mom OG' star Mackenzie McKee
'Teen Mom OG' star Mackenzie McKee / Instagram / Mackenzie McKee

Mackenzie McKee had a very tough 2019 to say the very least, and the Teen Mom OG star took to Instagram to share her thoughts on the past year. Fans will know that her mother, Angie Douthit, sadly passed away last month after battling cancer, making this holiday season super difficult for Mackenzie.

The TV personality opened up on the social media platform, admitting the past year "deeply wounded" her, calling it the worst one of her life. She also acknowledged her struggles with mental health issues, sharing how much she faces anxiety and depression. She also stated that 2020 will be about learning to live without her mom.

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2019 deeply wounded me. It was the worst year of my life in several ways. I spent more nights this year crying myself to sleep, deep anxiety, horrible depression than all my years put together. Finding strength to wake up, be a mom, and run my business has been nearly impossible. I went from loving life to begging God to come take us all. If I ever have a year as painful as this one again, I know I won’t survive it. From being betrayed, to watching my best friend/mother take her last breath, to watching my dad in so much pain, I wish to never relive this year. However some sweet Memories I have of this year. I got to travel several fun places with my mom. I got to watch her bring so many people to the lord and inspire hundreds of thousands on tv. Josh came to know the lord, i prayed for his salvation patiently for nearly 10 years. My kids were happy and healthy, and I have great friends. Everyone seems excited for the new year, and i am usually excited to ring in the New Years. However, 2020 is a year I have to learn to live without my mom. The one who helped me through everything. The one who always believed in me. The year us kids have to watch our dad live without his sweet heart. I do not want to ring in the new year AT ALL. But one thing is for sure, God gives us a choice to live eternity in heaven one day. Where there is no pain and suffering and i can not WAIT for that day. Until then I pray to find myself again. Feel human, have motivation, learn to understand things, and live her legacy. Something tells me God wanted me to endure this kind of pain for some reason ?. Happy New Years. Photos done by @haaaley_d

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Mackenzie's post is an example one of those rare moments where the internet is actually pure and wonderful, because all of the comments have brought nothing but love and support. Fans shared their own crippling losses to remind the MTV star that she is not alone, and that others survived similar sorrows.

One fan wrote, "I tear up every time I read any of your posts about your mother, as I feel like your words express exactly how I would feel if it were my mother that had passed."

Fans promised prayers, sent heart emojis and sent hugs and love. While this time must be so tough for Mackenzie and her family, hopefully she finds comfort in the incredible flood of support from her Instagram community.